Perfection

Another night of Monk. What is behind obsessive/ compulsive is the thought that is things were perfect, life would be perfect too. But, of course, things can never be perfect.
I try so hard to be perfect for that very reason, so life will be easy. But I realized today that I have another motive. I think that being perfect will please God.
But He says faith is what pleases him, not perfection.
What a relief!
Now maybe I can relax.